Because of their unpleasant themes, I’ve found “random thoughts” to be a problem. But, is their subject-matter the actual problem, or does the problem come from my conscious-mind’s tendency to focus on trash? Is my conscious-mind behaving like someone scanning the Internet, regularly enticed by click-bait headlines, readily reading the garbage contained within?
Or perhaps my conscious-mind is just too thorough, actively reading every detail, performing due diligence to ascertain which content is worthwhile? But in sorting through the muck & mire, maybe the poor thing is overwhelmed? Either way, my conscious-mind is not able to handle the drama and dissatisfaction that constantly comes from “random thoughts”.
I’ve been experimenting in meditation (as I often do) by having my conscious-mind “drop all packets”. This is a network-firewall reference in which anything attempting to connect doesn’t get rejected, the requests are simply sent into a “black hole” – nothing gets analyzed and no errors are returned, packets are just dropped into nothingness.
In other words: eyes closed, thoughts off. There’s no good or bad thoughts to evaluate: not a single one is processed. It’s a brute-force approach – if input is overburdening the system, dump it all. This gives my conscious-mind a break from sorting and reviewing all the nastiness coming in from “random thoughts”.
So now if I’m going through daily life and I notice an uptick in resource utilization e.g. apprehension, frustration, irritation – I set my conscious-mind to “drop all packets”. Obviously there’s a hack-in-progress, so incoming requests can’t be trusted. Things tend to normalize soon after.
Side note: I’ve been noticing some very specific, targeted attacks lately. For example, as I sat down in my meditation corner this afternoon, I noticed my several-year-old plant crawling with tiny spider-like things. I ended-up tossing it in a trash bag. And about a foot away, tiny ant-like things were crawling up the wall. Huh!? I did not end up meditating. Just a funny coincidence I suppose….