Painting Moods

I think the Law of Attraction is an undeniable concept in the sense that our perspective and attitude affect our perceived reality. If you’re in a bad mood, a friendly “Hello!” could be interpreted as a personal attack. But does the Law of Attraction actually cause the world to align with our way of thinking? Luckily, I believe in Simulation Theory, so from that standpoint it’s certainly plausible that the world becomes whatever we think it is.

I do have a problem with the concept of devising specific wishes though. If I’m not that creative, what am I supposed to wish for? What am I supposed to adorn my vision-board with? I don’t know what’s to come in the future. For example, current YouTubers in their late twenties and thirties never imagined the platform they’re currently succeeding on — and for some, the Internet wasn’t even a thing until much later in life.

Additionally, where does the inspiration to wish even come from? Why did someone suddenly feel like posting videos on the Internet? Why did I develop a desire to learn computer programming in my early twenties? Why is my mind filled with thoughts that I type-up and post on this blog? Who knows — yet these prompts to think, act, and desire come from somewhere.

But what we do know, is that our mood tends to directly affect our thoughts, actions, and desires. If I’m in a great mood, my particular thoughts, actions, and desires reflect that fact — same if I’m in a foul mood. So I think the goal is to cultivate the best mood possible, and then everything falls in line as we then perceive our circumstances in the best possible way.

As far as the Law of Attraction goes, I think specific wishes and daydreams are fine in the sense that they’re painting pictures that elicit positive moods and emotions. If I see myself as a champion archer splitting arrows on the target, I’m filling myself up with triumph — I don’t necessarily want to be Robin Hood though. So in that sense, I don’t think I should be tied to my exact wishes and daydreams — they’re simply throw-aways that assist in cultivating a particular mood. Some visions might manifest as depicted, but so what as long as the good times keep rollin’. Which they will, by definition, if I maintain a positive attitude.


Advanced Controls

So if we’re in advanced-mode, how do we control the car? Not with a hyper-focused conscious effort, that’s for sure. Think about walking for instance, do you analyze every foot-placement and muscle-action? Of course not, you simply allow your body to walk unencumbered — whereas if you constantly examine and manually direct the movements, you’re likely to trip.

It’s true for any game: you sync with its rhythm, take a lighthearted approach to winning, and enjoy the experience itself. And no, you can’t wish your way through — you have no idea what’s in store, how could you know what to wish for? Instead, you gratefully accept the obstacles and surprises as they’re presented to you.

But keep in mind that you influence the obstacles and surprises by your attitude and outlook. If you’re suspicious and full of complaints, you’re simply not going to enjoy what’s provided. Whereas if you’re in the mood for fun, everything becomes a party, an entertaining adventure, a grand ol’ time.

So, the controls are easy. What’s hard is maintaining an awareness and a focus that allows you to implement them. The “advanced” part, is that your mind is allowed to wander anywhere and everywhere — you’re allowed to think anything you want. If you want to contemplate the worst stuff possible, then go right ahead (that’s the equivalent of crashing into a wall by the way).

But if you want to tame advanced mode, and become a decent player at this game, you have to stop trying — simply flow along with a cheerful confidence. This game, like any game, is made for your amusement. You have ample ability to excel: just allow life to take you on a ride — let go, that’s all you need to know.

Advanced Mode

I don’t believe life is optimized. I think the long swaths of boredom, the unending uncertainty, the frustration, the frequent break-downs and repairs, the repeating storylines, and the cross-exposure to other individual narratives all demonstrate this.

If life was optimized, our personal narrative would be programmed and tuned precisely to our tastes. We’d have goals and a vision leading us down a specific path. We’d be confident in the direction we’re heading. Our chassis would chug-along trouble-free. The overall narrative would be full of interesting surprises — happy twists and turns that excite and delight. And upon our path we’d be surrounded by scenery and extras that only serve to support our journey.

Instead, I think we’re thrown into a big open-ended game-world in which we just have to make do. So either this is the best the developers could come up with, or it’s an “advanced mode”.

For instance, I was just playing a racing/driving game in which I turned off all the “helper” settings. There’s no auto-braking, no assisted-steering and no anti-skid — in other words, I crash into the wall a lot. But I didn’t like the auto-settings because it feels like I’m not doing enough. I opted for advanced-mode — I literally said, please make this harder for me, I want to crash and burn a lot, I want to experience failure. And it’s true, I do prefer the feeling of control more-so than having my hand-held all the time.

If I so readily opt for advanced-mode in games, then perhaps I opted to turn-off a lot of the auto-steering mechanisms in this life. While I do think life is obviously supporting and encouraging my existence, it’s definitely not optimized. As a being beyond this earthly abode, believing so strongly in my abilities, did I decide to do this to myself? Subject myself to an extra dose of chaos and confusion just so I could demonstrate my ability to control a bucking bronco?

Although, it would be quite embarrassing to later learn that I had ALL the auto-steering mechanisms ON, and I just completely suck at this game.

An Odd Coincidence

An excerpt from the fictional tales of The Haphazard Historian.

In 1972, during his first term in office, then president Nixon made a historic journey to the East in order to establish relations with an angry and isolated China. In 2018, current president Trump made a historic journey to the East in order to establish relations with an angry and isolated North Korea.

In 1974, Nixon resigned due to a scandal that came about from the 1972 presidential election, the election in which he attained his second term in office. Shady characters working on behalf of Nixon sought to sabotage his Democratic rivals. At least some of these men were caught in the act. A high-level FBI official, knowing what happened, leaked what he knew to The Washington Post. This information would link these shady characters directly to the president himself, ultimately resulting in his resignation.

The current president is currently plagued by election issues in which it’s alleged that shady characters sought to sabotage his Democratic rival. In Nixon’s time, the FBI was apparently not able to directly involve itself in the situation, hence the leaking-of-information tactic. And as it was then, The Washington Post is a vocal critic of the current administration. One would reason then, that the ultimate goal is to tie the current administration directly to the shady characters that worked to sabotage its opponents.

Another item to consider, is that during his time in congress, Nixon was an active member of the House Un-American Activities Committee, the controversial committee that investigated communist ties and spies. According to this group, there is a long and established history of Soviet espionage and tampering within the United States. It is alleged that the successor of the Soviet Union is continuing this trend and in fact played the part of the shady characters.

Is history repeating itself? Will this narrative have a surprise ending or is it simply a remake of the original? Like in Hollywood, are there only a handful of storylines that just get remade over and over again? Does this lend evidence to the proposition that the world is merely a manufactured fiction? A simulation perhaps…? Stay tuned! Same Bat-Time! Same Bat-Channel!

End of Attraction Test

I’m not saying the Law of Attraction stuff is bogus, I’m simply saying the typical way in which I went about it isn’t for me. I engaged in a somewhat rigorous experiment to see if I could manifest something, and it didn’t seem to work. Yes, it does appear to work for some people — I’ve seen my friend’s wishes come true for example, and she delights in it. But for me, it’s just not a process I particularly enjoy. She’s got a great imagination and naturally sees abundance in the world.

I know what I don’t like, I’m ready to complain all the time. But as far as what I like, I think I enjoy it more when things come as a surprise. I don’t like to plan out my fun. My friend would love to plan her own party, but I just want to show up to some awesome event that’s perfectly suited to my tastes. In that regard, I’m not taking any responsibility for my fun. I’m just like: hey life… amuse me…. Although I’m not sure if that’s the right way to go about it.

But I’m also not receptive to the fun. Life might very-well accept my demand, but I’m too busy complaining to notice. At the very least I have to enter the event ready and willing to be entertained. It’s like showing up at a feast already full — none of the food is appetizing, in fact it’s kinda gross to see all the overflowing plates. Instead, I have to show-up ready to chow-down. To be fair, the first things I tried were nasty, but I was wrong to assume the entire buffet was as unappealing.

So for me, I don’t think I need to work on my wishing. Delightful surprise is what I wish for. What I need to work on is my willingness to accept what I’m given. Life is a fun-house tasked with providing endless entertainment. What dazzling spectacle is waiting around the next corner!!?? Who knows!!! I shouldn’t be looking to lock-down life by forcing it to manifest my mundane wishes. I should be open, anticipating wondrous amusements that far exceed anything I could ever imagine.

Mental Gourmet

Man, I’ve been too involved in everyday life stuff lately. I want to go back to thinking about bigger things. I gotta be honest, I’m not really a fan of daily human activities. I hate the hygiene-stuff for instance, whereas I know some people absolutely love bathing, “getting ready”, and dressing in nice clothes. And I never even liked eating until I met my friend — she introduced me to the concept of food as a hobby. I’ve always found my fun in the quiet moments with thoughts drifting through my head — or by watching shows and playing video-games.

But if I wasn’t in human form, and had infinite knowledge, there’d be nothing to consider since I’d already know the answers. Not to mention, there’d be no path to travel since I wouldn’t be an embodied being. Having a human existence provides me with unlimited limitations — there’s obstacles to overcome, information to learn, information to forget and relearn again. I mean, as a thinker, being a human is as good as it gets. I can rediscover the same ideas as soon as I forget them!

Of course that sounds weird, but it’s the same way with eating. It’s always a new and exciting feast despite the fact that we already ate a similar selection a few days before. We eat the same types of foods over and over and over, and similarly we think the same thoughts over and over and over. If you’re a connoisseur of food, you’re going to seek out selections that delight your palate. Similarly, if you’re a connoisseur of thought, you best seek out ideas that delight your mind.

If you’re a gourmet, you’re not going to accept whatever crap is placed in front of you — no, you’re going to find the best of the best. So if you’re a thinker, you can’t accept just any random thought that flows through your thought-stream — gross! You have to refine your thoughts until they provide the satisfaction you so desire. And like with food, it’s good to take breaks from similar thoughts until they seem new again. So with that in mind, I guess it’s good that I was involved in everyday life stuff for a bit.

Sale Pending

Dear Diary,

Lately, I’ve been busy preparing the house for sale — sorting through things, boxing, tossing, and cleaning. There’s been a “For Sale” sign in the window for a few days. After a showing today, an interested party just put in an offer — but there’s some stuff that needs to happen before the deal is finalized. And after it’s sold we’ll be moving outta state. We’ve got plans to ship our stuff in one of those small portable storage containers while we drive in our compact car for a few days.

My friend has the town she wants to live-in already picked out. It’s a town we already lived in ten years ago, maybe we had some unfinished business there. She’s got big plans I guess. Me, I’m just along for the ride. I did like the town, so I’m not complaining. But for anyone keeping track, I’m not moving to where I had selected, nor under the conditions I had selected. So as far as my “Law of Attraction” experiment went, it’s a no for me dawg.

I suppose in Law-of-Attraction speak, the universe has something better than what my measly mind could manifest on its own. But if that’s always going to be the case, why bother with LOA stuff in the first place? I guess I’m gonna have to dump that philosophy. Wishing is for the birds, it’s just not my style. My friend on the other hand, her wishes seem to work more than they don’t work. I’m a passenger though, she’s literally always in the driver’s seat — and I don’t mind that, cuz I’ve got no particular place to go.

Besides, I don’t like planning my life out and I don’t have a great imagination — so I’m not good at wishing, it’s not a process I innately enjoy (unlike my friend). So in that sense, LOA is actually working perfectly i.e. I don’t want to wish my way through life, I’d rather sit back and keep my arms and legs within the vehicle at all times. But what I have enjoyed is the practice of hopefulness and a belief in the benevolence of life — those ideas are working out fine.

Every time I start to worry I simply shut it down and overpower it with hopefulness and a belief in the benevolence of life. What a relief I tell ya. Will everything work out? Yep. But what about… Yep that too. Even if… don’t worry about it, it’s all good. Okay but say that… nope, not gonna even finish that thought, I’m in a positive place. It’s a little game I’ve been playing. I don’t always dominate but I’m definitely getting better and it’s well-worth the invested effort.

Well, thanks for listening dear diary.

Yours truly,