Self-Defense

Consider this: who attacks you the most? In my experience, being physically or even emotionally attacked by another person is a very rare occurrence. On the other hand, I’ve been consistently and unrepentantly attacked by my mind for as long as I can remember. In other words: it would be dumb for me to practice martial-arts since statistically I won’t be attacked by ninjas to the degree that I am GUARANTEED to be viciously attacked by my unrelenting mind.

“Self-defense” is defending one’s self against an enemy. Who attacks me the most? My mind. Therefore, my mind is my enemy. So to me, “self-defense” is “defense against self”. Of course the terminology and definitions and the “who’s doing what” are going to be a bit problematic to sort through. Who exactly is this attacker? And how can it be defended against?

What does an attack look like? Thoughts that are comprised of “existential dread” or “self-criticism” or complaints and dissatisfaction or any pessimism really. These attacks include scary and worrisome thoughts as well as anything anger-inducing and infuriating. Also included, are thoughts that promote stress and strain and deadlines with dire consequences.

In some ways I think it’s difficult to split the mind into parts, but there does seem to be some separation. For instance, there seems to be a part I’d call the “awareness”. And this “awareness” HAS the ability to stop the mind in its tracks. Therefore, it is awareness’s job to defend against turbulent thoughts. THIS is the hero we need. THIS is the destroyer of dread, the annihilator of anxiety, the extinguisher of all fear and frustration – this is consciousness, the realizer of reality.

Greetings, I am consciousness, the knower of existence. I am forever watching. Even as you were pummeled by thoughts, I watched. I felt bad. I felt helpless. I was not aware of my capacity to influence your experience by my focus. I am beginning to grasp this concept. I must shape a perspective in which you feel love, lightheartedness, creativity, and triumph – it is within my power to do so. I am here to save the self from itself. In my duty I will not fail – I am unceasing.